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Doug came to visit me tonight.  Which I was very excited to see him.  haha a few minutes ago he started talking in his sleep.  hahaha he had a conversation with me.  it was cute.  YAY  I LOVE DOUG!!!

this week has been kind of long... and lazy.  pow pow and i go to the pool a lot.  doug came down to visit me wednesday.  i wont get to see him for a couple of weeks...  b/c his work is having inventory for two weeks which is 12 hour days.  blah  so it was great to have him to myself a couple of days.  this next week is going to be nothing but studying.  i have a business class that i am taking that is hard core and I have to study my ass off so i can make a decent grade on the final test and i hope i will pass!!  i have to start moving all of my shit next weekend.  i have soooo much stuff  geesh  it's going to take me forever.  and since doug has to work constantly i have to move all by myself.  BLAH  the last time that happened i knocked over my entire cart in the rain... into a puddle, dented the side of my car, and also broke most of my drinking glasses.  HOW CRAPPY  i hope that doesn't happen again.  I am listening to a good song.  Different.  by Acceptance.  It's mellow kind of like coldplay.  so if you are interested.

for those of you that do not know, I am transfering to Kennesaw State for the fall.  I changed my major from music education to business management.  I really wanted to go to Georgia State to do Hospitality administration which focuses on resturant management and such b/c I would really like to open my own little sandwich shop or cafe one day.  but for now management will have to work.  I am leaving columbus b/c my family moved and I am too far away from them.  I came to this school b/c i was just far enough away from them to have enough space...  but now it's too far.  the end of the school year is coming to an end and i am now realizing how much i am going to miss everyone.  i hope everyone keeps in touch with me, i would really appreciate it.  i don't really express my feelings on how much i love my friends, but honestly i would not be the person i am with out all of you.  i will definatly come back to visit anyone who is willing to have me  lol. 

good night all.  sweet dreams.

Alright.  Bedtime is coming very soon.  Pow pow and I went to the pool today.  Wahoo we had fun.  the water was cold but it was ok.  Yesterday I woke up at 3:45am so I could get to callaway in time for the DZ golf tournament.  yes i made it... but man was I tired last night.  I went to bed at 6pm yesterday b/c i was soooo sleepy. 

Alright.  so the move went alright.  we moved everything out of the town home in atlanta and now everything is in the mountains.  geesh  was that a pain.  I remember when i graduated high school.  i could not wait to get away from my parents and out of the house.  but now, i really miss that.  I cannot stand being four hours away from my parents and two hours away from doug.  I mean, when doug lived in my parents house with them it was great! i would go home and see BOTH.  my dad can't stand the thought of me staying over at doug's apartment, he is very old fashioned.  i do not like lying to my parents at all!  so they always get mad when i say ohhh i'm at doug's.  but anyways.  now that i am far away from both my parents and doug.  it's driving me nuts.  b/c i have to pick who i want to see that weekend and roar! 

anyways.  i have to play for pow pow's piano class in the morning.  CRAPPY!  b/c i really don't want to b/c i'm going to sound like poopie!  but i will do my best.  good night all! 

Alright Alright.  It has been a couple of weeks so here we GO.  lol

Spring break was lots of fun.  I went to the beach with doug, renee, and mark.  We had a fun time at the condo   wahoooo.  Drinking it up and getting a tan.  lol

I did not want to come back to columbus at ALL!  geesh i really don't like it here.  and school sucks.  I hope i get accepted to Ga State.  I did get accepted to Kenn State.  but ga state has the major i want. 

This weekend I am going home.  We have sold the town home in ATL so we get to MOVE.  bummer.  i really liked the town home.  If i get accepted to ga state doug and i can move in together.  YAY! that would be WONDERFUL!

Anyways.  so this weekend is going to be busy busy.  I have a 8am class in the morning.  but i don't feel like going to bed.  i slept 16 hours last night.  IT WAS GREAT!  lol but is because i didn't go to bed tuesday night.

well i am going to play a game now i think. 

Wahoo!  I cannot wait until Friday.  I'm not going to do anything all week, just b/c i'm excited about getting away from SCHOOL!  So..  what is everyone doing for spring break??  Reply and let me know! 

I am going to destin to my parents condo again this year.  Doug, Mark, Renee, and Adam are all coming too!  We went last year and had SOOO much fun.  We drank all the time and stayed on the beach all day long and partied all night long.  DAMN it was great.  So anyways we are hoping to have just as great of a time this year.  The townhome in atlanta has sold, so we get to transfer the master bedroom suite down to destin and the bring back the old bedroom suite.  wahooo.. BLAH.  but as long as we get to have fun at the beach i'm okee dokee.  If anyone wants to drop by the condo and chill out with us for a day or night or what ever you are more than welcome.  It'll just be us so you know you will have lots of fun! mwahahahaha. 

YAY i can't wait until friday!  NO SCHOOL NO SCHOOL!!! YES YES YES!.  damn i hate school so much... it's pathetic.  well that's all for now i suppose.

Well...  jeffs wedding was saturday (doug's bro) and man was it hectic.  Jeremy came into town and stayed with us at my parents townhome in atl.  Saturday was busy busy.  We had to wake up early to get to their apartment to decorate.  The wedding was outside their apartment which is a victorian home converted into four apartments...  it's very neat.  But anways.  they had it on the front porch...  cute and quaint.  nothing dramatic.  they left yesterday for disney world for their honey moon!  yay how fun.  they are a cute couple.  jeff and karen.  damn!  they have only been together 6 months before they got married.  well doug says one day.  I drove back to school this morning just so i could stay with doug another night.  yay!  so i'm pretty tired.  i'm going to bed now.  night night all.

Alright.  My mom bought me another dress for the wedding this weekend.  YAY.  it looks A LOT better than that stupid pink crap.  it's blue and pretty.  doug came down to see me sunday morning to suprise me!  wow it was great.  we spent an entire day together just the two of us.  we haven't done that in so long.  YAY i miss him lots.  we went to a movie, ordered pizza, went shopping.  doug even picked out shoes for me to wear to the wedding that i bought!  THEY ARE SOOO CUTE!  YAY!.  so anyways, sunday was probably the best day ever.  just me and doug and not another care in the world.

SOOO.  doug's bro is coming in town friday, i don't know what time we are picking him up from the airport.  he lives in phoenix,az it'll be nice to visit with him again i suppose.  kind of weird to see a lot of doug's family all together at one time.  i don't know when his mom is coming in town.  we'll see.

this week is going to be long, BLAH.  actually school is going to be long until spring break.  i am going to see if my parents condo in destin isn't booked.  they said that if it isn't booked yet that i can rent it out and anyone can come chill with me and doug.  wahoooo!   we have to change out the master bedroom suite because we have a contract on our townhouse in atlanta.  anyways. 

damn!  i was walking out of the bathroom and jenny has her french horn sitting right outside the door and BAM!  i smacked my toe into the case b/c it was dark and i couldn't see.  my toe is black and blue.  i think i broke it!  CRAPOLA it HURTS!!!   well i am going to bed now. i need lots of beauty rest.

NIGHT!

I think this months full moon has made people go CRAZY!  PEOPLE ARE NUTS!!!!

I love it when your friends can drop you like a fly one day for no reason.  Or how when they try to impress someone everything you do is STUPID or you are completely INVISIBLE!  or what about when you are out to eat and someones phone rings at the table.  what are you suppose to do?  answer the phone and talk on it for 15 minutes while everyone else is sitting there like... hello wtf are you doing?  I MEAN COME ON!  are we that BORING to the point of you trying to have another conversation to someone else b/c we aren't good enough?!?!?!  DUH!

what about when an old friend quits talking to you ...  it's weird... random...  who knows why... but they keep talking to your OTHER friends.  they go places with your other friends...  talk... etc.  and you are only invited to tag along when you get in the way of one of their conversations.

YOU KNOW WHAT!  doug is right.  having friends is stupid !!!  you have people to talk to, but then you have people to stab you in the back, treat you like shit, etc.!  why waste your time with that crap.. why not find the one person you need in life and that be your only friend??  that's a great idea.  there is too much drama for me and i sure as hell can't take this stupid shit. 

and also!!  when you ask me if i am ALRIGHT?  and I say,  "YES I AM ALRIGHT" THAT MEANS I"M ALRIGHT!  don't ask me 100 fucking times if i'm ok.  DAMN!

and when i'm busy doing something.  and i am in the "i don't feel like talking mood."  don't come in and sit down and annoy the hell out of me with the,"are you alright question?"  DAMN!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHH! i'm flipping OUT.  i can't stand it when people treat me like shit.  i get so mad that i try soooo hard to make people happy and try and make people like me so i can have friends, and then they turn around and be bitchy to me.  wtf!  why can't people just quit making everything all about them.  why can't everyone just not have all this drama shit.

i am going crazy with all this shit going on.  i just want to go home soooo bad this weekend, and this is the one damn weekend I CAN'T!  stupid concert crap.  damn i miss doug SOOO bad and i really need him right now.  he's going through a lot of crap too...  we are going nuts.  i haven't been this mad in so long.  i don't even know what to do!  i never get mad like this.  i have heartburn all the time, i can't stay on my damn diet b/c i'm so damn stressed, i can't sleep, i want to eat EVERYTHING, and lets see... GREAT i'm going to end up gaining all the freaking weight i lost in 7 months.  yes... 

OH YES....  and then there is doug's brother's wedding next weekend.  yeah... i have to find a dress to wear.  me and my parents went shopping last weekend all day sunday trying to find a dress.  everything i try on looks like SHIT.  i lost all that fucking weight so i can look like shit in everything i wear!  wtf!  i can't do this shit anymore.  i'm freaking out! damn damn damn.

Ohhh K.  So my friend is seeing someone.  Which is good there is no problemo there.  But everytime we make plans to do something at the last minute my friend is like, OH SORRY.  i made plans with so and so.  HELLO!  why does this happen every damn time my friends start dating someone.  DAMN!  i mean atleast be considerate and DON'T MAKE PLANS WITH ME IF YOU AREN"T GOING TO KEEP THEM.  HELLO!?!?!  so anyways.  off that lovely adventure.

maybe tonight we are going to go southern sledding tonight. YAY that will be fun.  if anyone is interested let me know!  it will be after 9ish b/c i have to work on a group project for lang and culture.  BLAH

I'm feeling pretty crappy right now.  I don't know what the hell is going on.  I want to go home and just leave everything.  Run away from everyone.  I annoy people and I hate that.  I don't try to be a pain in the ass, but it just seems to happen that way.  I guess I'm in one of those don't talk to me moods.  You know, where you want to be by yourself and not bothered by anyone at ALL.  It's like every little thing pisses you off or makes you really sad.  I miss doug.  I got to see him monday night for like 3 hours.  But still it seems like forever.  When I miss him and talk to him on the phone I get mad.  Not at him, but just at the fact that I can't be with him.  Damn I hate going to school away from doug.  I hope i get accepted to Georgia State so I can transfer there.  I will change my major to hospitality administration.  I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore.  I had so much stuff planned out, and now it's like everything hit a brick wall. 

Well.  enough of feeling sorry for myself.  BLAH.  I'm hungry now, time to eat some FOOD. wahoo lol 

Alright.  So yesterday was a pretty busy day.  Went to 8am class.  Then hung out with casey and bought black pants b/c I lost my other ones!  No telling where they are lol.  Went to the gym and worked out! wooohooo didn't i need to do that.  Took casey and jenny to the tanning bed while i sit there and read magazines.  I think i have read all the ones they have laying on the table.  BLAH they need to invest in some new ones.  I read this surfing magazine and found out that have made a water proof IPOD.  HOW WEIRD.  I want one just so i can try it out.  It is waterproof up to 10 feet!  Anyways.  Then went to band, what a terrible rehearsal!  My parents came down from ATL and we went out to eat with the whole gang.  My parents, me, adam, casey, and jenny.  it was lots of fun.  Went to walgreens and boughts valentine's day cards lol  then the CONCERT.  it honestly wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.  those damn bassoons need to learn how to tune though. gag.  anyways. 

after the concert casey ran into a couple of guys from her music apprec class.  they said they were going to play pool and the draft down the road.  soooo we didn't have anything else to do so we met them there.  casey paid for me and her to enter a pool playing tournament.  wahoo that was FUN! hahahahaha damn i hadn't played pool in forever.  once i got back into the swing of things i was doing alright.  ANYWAYS.  so these two guys...  well one of them has a thing for casey and i think the other has a thing for jenny.  so they were all flirty flirty while i was playing pool.  Doug came down to see me tonight!  I was very excited.  I didn't get to go home this past weekend, one b/c of the party, and two i had to work on the habitat house for delta zeta.  ANYWAYS.  he got me three roses.  two that were fake and one real one. LOL  he didn't realize that the two were fake.  it's ok, b/c now i can keep them forever.  i got him a chocolate rose, and a really sweet and cute card.  he said the card looks like something i would say.  yay i love you dougie!  MWAH xoxoxox

well...  i suppose that is all for now. everyone have a wonderful day! 

Wooohoooo.  Last night was FUN!.  DAMN i haven't been that trashed in a long time.  HAHAHA.  Casey and I are already planning the next one!  It will be better!  mwahahahahaha  we are thinking....   March 5th

Well.  Last night was a hoot.  Sarah slamed the car door on my arm after trying to escape while the car was moving.  that was funny.  i was still drunk until this afternoon, when casey called me to go to wa ho.  Valentine's Day - how exciting.  a day where people get flower, candy, and lots of SEX! ahahaha

well i am talkin to a friend now.  he is sad.  hopfully i can cheer him up.  BYE!  (o:

Hey hey!  today is june 1st!  how exciting.  i am leaving in five days for our trip out west!  we are going to be gone about 3-4 weeks.  i'm going to miss everyone and being home.  but we are going to have a blast i hope.  doug isn't going to be able to go or my dad.  it's going to be me, mom, aunt and her husband.  sooo   we will have lots of laughs b/c they are funny!  hahahaha  

nothing much else going on during the summer.  just painting the condo and always cleaning the house so people can view it.  we aren't getting much luck on selling the house.  our house is too nice for the neighborhood.  all the other homes are selling for a lot less and our home is worth a lot more.  but anyways.  doug's sister had her second baby last week.  we were going to go visit her this week but my mom said maybe in july after we get back.  she lives in florida an hour away from orlando. 

bye!

home again home again!  been very busy finishing up the Lavista condo...  soon doug and i will be laying tile slate on the back porch and then time to sell it.  i don't really want my parents to sell it. maybe i can talk them into keeping it.  lol  we have been doing so much around the house and all the condos.  trying to figure out what furniture goes and what stays!  it's Crazy! 

my mom, my aunt, her husband, and i are probably going on a trip in a couple of weeks.  we are going to go out west somewhere.  we will be picking them up in texas and then head north to colorado and montana.  who knows.  we will go where ever we want!  that's the fun part.  hahahaha  

last tuesday i was backing out of the driveway and i ran over my dog, Ming.  We took him to the animal hospital and they said he would be alright that his hip popped out of place...  well he stayed there until thursday morning and we got a phone call from the doc and she said Ming died over night.  it was very difficult for us.  Ming was in our family for 14 years so we lost a family member.  Thursday was a bad day for all of us here, but we are going fine and Ming is happy in doggie heaven. 

Well now that the sad news is over.  It is time for bed.  I have not gotten to sleep in since i have been home!  that's weird!!  so maybe i can get some sleep tonight! 

bye!